AbstrActuAlies

I’ve got the Blooz

I don’t know why
But i’ve always been below average liked
on Facebook no one really posts things on my wall.  Not even the link whores.
On tumblr no one really engages with me in anything.  No messages and rarely new followers.
In school no one would talk to me really.  Besides a few.  But they talked to me because I wandered into their circle.
I never had a circle I was a important member of.  
I rarely get texts, and when I do it’s from the one person who I guess sees something in me.  I wish I saw what they did.  Unless they talk to me to feel better about themselves because I am loozar.
Why is this?
am I ugly and boring? am I stupid?
does everything I say and do give off a vibe of someone who should be dismissed?
I’m learning to not require any other human.
this is more just a last ditch effort of understanding why I’m doomed to loneliness.
If you’re one of those people who gets frustrated with people who vent about a lingering sadness
please
BERATE THE FUCK OUT OF ME